A Right Stitch Up
I am more impressed with the title of this post than what i am going to write about.
So here we go.
I had my second baby at the end of November. I found it a most traumatic experience. Worse than the first for different reasons.
I found myself totally out of control. I was screaming and clawing at my husband. Something that i never thought i would do.
I am a controlled person. Someone who is together. I don’t lose the plot, scream and such like. I am organised. I like to discuss things, talk, try to be patient (i said try).
Screaming in labour i laughed at. I even said in the delivery suite when I heard a woman screaming “you wont catch me doing that”.!
How wrong i was.
I am still coming to terms with it all.
Birth aside.
I am glad its all over. I am never going through that again. I do not want anymore children.
I will never have to be prodded, poked, have a needle put in me, a drip put up, a scan and any other awful, undignified thing that i have had to endure whilst being pregnant and giving birth.
Wrong
You see the thing is that whilst i was cooing over my new-born, with my legs in stirrups, being stitched up. The Doctor doing it… didn’t do a very good job.
The other day i had to go back to my specialist that i saw when i was pregnant (and begging to be induced to get the baby out) and be prodded and poked all over again. 
Oh its just too horrible for words but i will put it as nicely as i can.
The doctor had to check my ‘strength’ down there!. Not just down there but back there . Fingers went in places that i never wanted anything to go in. Boooo it’s just so undignified. I cant talk or write about it anymore.
The result being i have to do my pelvic floors for 3 months. If things have improved then the operation that i have wont be so savage. If it hasn’t improved then i will be cut from front to back and my muscles stitched up tighter then sewn up. Its just awful isnt it.
Its bad enough having a baby. The pain is indescribable. So when you do it, you expect to come out ok. Not have to go back and go though more pain and healing. I am so upset about it all. And no one really understands.
I want to have a pretty nu nu. I want it to look and feel nice. Not that anyone else see’s it apart from my hubby. Its a confidence thing.
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Oh goodenss me…get doing those exercises hun…and get one of those little machines they advertise in the back of lady mags for strengthening them..
Oh hells bells poor you, Idon’t know what it’s like, I’ve never even been pregnant but I don’t think I need to have been to imagine how horrible it is for you on many levels. Do as PJB says, get the machine and go hell for leather at it, hopefully that will make the whole process a lot less traumatic. Fingers crossed for you xx
oh gosh! Poor you!
Oh god that sounds so awful, you’ve put me off babies for life
Sorry for my ignorance but could they have done a caesarean?
oh good god how pigging awful!!!
i do totally understand though and its such a paradox – you feel shit about your body (me c section scar and stretch marks) but then you feel guilty cos its the price you paid for lovely wee baby. men have no idea what we go through!
Something natural should not be so nasty! How horrid for you. And how cruel that the person f***ed it up for you. Are you not tempted to sue? Kinda joking about the last part but I totally get the confidence thing. I think that the exercises will sort you out, though, because muscle exercises are rather good. What do you mean no-one understands? Who doesn’t?